I stopped counting meals a long time ago, because there are no meals. There is only the light, the bed, the floor, and me. I don’t know if I’ve been down here for days or weeks. I don’t even know if anyone is coming back.
I test the collar again, because I always do. The metal ring sits snug around my throat, cool where the latex doesn’t cover me, and the chain running from it to the wall gives me maybe four feet of slack before it snaps taut and reminds me what I am. I rise from the bed on shaking legs and take three steps toward the far wall, just to feel the chain pull tight, just to confirm that nothing has changed. Nothing ever changes. The cuffs bite into my wrists when I yank against them, short chains clattering, and the sound echoes off cement with nowhere to go. Four walls. No windows. No door that I can reach.
The ballgag is its own private torment. Bright red, huge, strapped so tight behind my head that the corners of my mouth ache in a way that never dulls. My jaw has learned to go slack around it, and I’ve learned to breathe slow through my nose, but the drool never stops being humiliating. It slips past my lip no matter how often I swallow, and I’ve felt it trail down my chin and land on the glossy black curve of my chest more times than I can count. When I scream into it, and I do still scream, the sound comes out small and wet and useless. That shames me more than the drool does.
The suit, though. The suit is the thing my hands keep returning to. It’s black latex, poured over me like liquid and sealed, so tight that I can feel it flex against my ribs every time I breathe. Somebody polished it, because it still gleams under the light, and when I look down at myself I can see warped reflections sliding across my own body. My tits are lifted and molded into two perfect shining domes, the material so thin and taut that I can feel every shift of air in the room across them. When I press my palms flat against them, the latex squeaks softly under my hands, and the pressure of it pushes back against me like it’s alive.
I pace my little radius and the suit protests the whole way. It pulls tight across my shoulders when I raise my cuffed hands, and it creaks at my hips with every step, a small rubbery sound that has become the soundtrack of my captivity. Between my legs it has worked itself into every fold of my pussy, snug and seamless and inescapable, and each stride drags it gently against me. I hate that I notice. I hate that after everything, the gag and the collar and the bare cement, my body still keeps a tally of every slick, tight place the material touches. There is nothing to do down here but feel.
Sometimes the fury takes me without warning. It happened an hour ago, or maybe yesterday, when I threw myself backward onto the bed and wrenched at the collar chain with both cuffed hands until the links sang. I kicked and twisted and the latex shrieked against the sheets, riding up tighter across my tits, and for a few seconds I was all rage and muscle and clattering metal. The chain did not care. The wall did not care. I ended up arched on the mattress with my chest heaving, drool running freely down my cheek, the collar’s edge digging a fresh red line into my throat. The light hummed. The walls stood. I lay there panting through my nose like a trapped animal, because that is exactly what I am.
Then comes the stillness. It always follows the storm, heavy and gray, and it lays me out flat on the bed with my chains pooled across my stomach. I stare at the ceiling and my hands wander, because there is nothing else for them to do. My fingers skate over the slick shell of my thigh, up over the curve of my hip, and the latex answers with soft creaks. I trace the seam where it dives between my legs and feel how it hugs my pussy, close as a held breath, warm now from my own body. My tits rise and fall under their glossy casing, and I watch them do it, mesmerized in spite of myself. Under this flat white light, in this ugly gray room, the suit makes me gleam like something displayed.
I’ve started talking to myself behind the gag. Not words, really, just shapes of words, muffled hums that vibrate against the red ball and die in my throat. I tell myself my sister is looking for me. I tell myself that stone walls can be broken and locks can be picked and that somebody, somewhere, has noticed I’m gone. The gag turns every one of those sentences into wet, broken noise. Maybe that’s a mercy. If I had to hear how uncertain my own voice sounds, I don’t know what I’d do.
The cuffs have rubbed my wrists raw in matching bands, and the latex covers everything below them, so the contrast is strange: damaged skin, then flawless black shine. I lift my hands and let the chains slide through my fingers, counting links for the hundredth time. Sixteen links from the collar to the wall. I know because I’ve counted them in the dark of my own mind so many times the number has worn a groove in me. Sixteen links. Four feet. One bed, one light, one girl in a polished suit that will not let her forget she has a body.
My legs give out eventually, like they always do. I’ve been standing too long, straining too long, and my knees buckle and deposit me back on the edge of the bed. The chain swings and settles. The latex, warmed through, clings to my thighs and my backside as I sit, and it shifts with me when I lean forward, elbows on knees, head hanging. Drool stretches from my lip in a shining thread and touches the floor. I watch it fall. It’s the only thing in this room that ever changes.
I could scream again. The defiance is still in me somewhere, banked like coals, and I know that in an hour, or in ten minutes, it will flare up and send me back to the chain, back to the wall, back to the pointless beautiful struggle that leaves me shaking and glossy with sweat under the latex. But right now the exhaustion wins. Right now I let myself fall sideways onto the mattress, chains rattling once and then going quiet. The collar pulls gently at my throat as I curl on my side. The suit creaks twice and is still.
I lie there and breathe. In through the nose, out through the nose, my tits pressing together under their tight black sheen, my pussy cradled in slick warmth, my braids a ruined tangle against the pillow. The light hums overhead, unchanged, unchangeable. Nobody comes. Nobody has ever come. I close my eyes and wait for the next surge of anger to wake me, and until it does, the room holds me exactly where I am, silent and shining and alone.
